Next time I will order the salad

You ever have one of those moments when you stop and realize that you care more about what people think of you than what is mentally healthy? Maybe it doesn't happen all the time but every now and then you get sucked right into the black hole of concern. Allow me to offer up my latest indecent as an example.

I am having lunch at Subway like I do at least three times a week every week. On this particular day I decided to order something that I never have before. There are 3 sandwiches that I stick with and I seldom stray. But I was feeling a little crazy so I thought, why not?

So I ask the guy to give me a "6 inch XXX on wheat, toasted, no cheese". He turns to get the bread but does a quick double take and says, "you say wheat??" And I nod and stammer, yes. Keep in mind that it is busy and there are people talking and the guy next to him has a headset on taking a drive through order. So logic says that he just didn't hear me and wanted to verify the type of bread I wanted. But sleeping paranoia raised its ugly head and it was all over.

My mind started swirling thoughts like, "maybe that particular sandwich is never ordered on wheat", "he is probably trying not to laugh himself silly that you ordered that on WHEAT!" "Who even eats wheat anymore?!" "I just ordered the stupidest sandwich ever!" ... you get the point.

As this has taken place in my head we are already in the vegetable section and I am so nervous now that I am scared to ask for anything else. I am second guessing every decision. I love cucumbers but what if they are even more idiotic on this particular sandwich than wheat was? So I stammer through my list of normal veggies, half expecting him at any moment to announce hysterically to the entire place that I just asked for olives on my stupid wheat sandwich. But he was kind enough not to. Instead he casually wrapped up my sandwich and politely asked if I wanted a cookie. After all I had just been through I think I do.. "Give me three" I said, then paid and left with I hope my dignity in tact.

"Is it that hard to make us look cool!" - Jeff "Almost Famous"

"See that man who thinks he's so smart? You can expect far more from a fool than from him." Prov 26:12

I even remembered my password

I have not blogged in almost a year. Well a month shy actually. I missed it but had lost site of why I did it in the first place. A chance meeting and a new film reminded me of how much I liked stamping part of my brain and thoughts into this little html box each day.

I had a chat with blogger/author Julie Powell about the new film based on her book, Julie and Julia. Hearing her talk about blogging was like hearing a story of an old friend. Someone you lost contact with long ago and that you really want to go visit.

So here I am back again. And for those of you still hanging around, hi. Oh and don't take off for spelling.